Another weekend gone...

...another weekend wasted. No, I wasn't wasted, the weekend was. At least I feel like I wasted it. It's always nice to rest, but it sucks to do nothing.

I gotta tell you, I felt pretty down in the dumps. If I didn't know any better, I would almost say at one point this weekend, I felt borderline depressed. Lucky for me with the kids and all, it almost assures that you don't hit depression, they keep you on your toes so much, you don't have time to get depressed. Well, I am sure that you could, but I don't see it happening for me. Not to mention the fact that I am not that type of person. Not even close. Thinking about it....it just doesn't seem right for me to say I felt a little on the depressed side.

I am sure that I wasn't, I just felt like I was, you know!? I am just saying that I hated feeling like this during the weekend. I am not saying that I have gotten out of my system, it's just now I have to get prepared for yet another freakin' work week. Sigh...I cringe at the thought of going through another work week...

It is what it is though. I have to figure out some why to make it through the week. I have to dig deep and get some kind of positive out of my situation, but it is getting so much more difficult. Man, it really is. I don't know what trick I am going to use this week, maybe just the thought of getting the day over with and going home, and that another day gone is another day closer to the weekend....but wait!!! I work this coming weekend, so that isn't going to help much...

The dark side of the force can now feel the hate flowing through me....

So with not really going into super details, one should be able to tell what the root of my evil is, right!? I so didn't want to use my blog to talk about shit like this either....it was inevitable, wasn't it?!

Enough about that....tomorrow is Valentine's Day for whatever that is worth. Lucky for me that Ruby and I don't do much if anything for it. Oh sure, I could have gotten here something, but I didn't get around to it. Yes, I do feel bad (when I think about it) that I didn't get Ruby anything, but I still didn't do anything about that. I think that we have been together so long that it is just another day for us. Having children now, you kind of turn your attention to them on days like this. I still love Ruby as much now as I ever have, and I am happy to be with her. I am glad that we still get along, and still have a happy marriage. I wish everyone could experience what we have...

Ok, I am having trouble trying to wrap this up, so I think I will just leave on this note.....

later days....

n