So much to do...

....so little time. That is so very true. The other day I was thinking of things that I missed doing and wanted to start back up, eventually. I got a small list together which looked like this...

Read books
Read comics
Play guitar
Listen to music
Work out
Play video games
Watch movies
Work on yard
Hang out with friends
Keep house clean

The list doesn't look long or all that difficult to get accomplished, but it is. A lot of it can get done, I think that I just need to organize my time better...well...duh....

A lot of it also depends on my work schedule. I have decided that I am not going to work as much as I have. That is easier said than done, but I think that I have to put my foot down somewhere, because work surely isn't going to help me in that. I think if they had it their way, I would never get to leave. For some reason, they want me to have all of the hours and send everyone else in the department home. That's not going to happen anymore. Something has got to change and I think that I am the only one that is going to force that issue. I absolutely have to. If they don't like that, then something will definitely change.

It feels like it should be a simple thing, but for me, it just isn't. As I type this, I feel a little stress coming on, or just my stomach wanting to knot up a bit. I am not one to get stressed out either, but thinking about work has done that to me....and that is not a good thing....enough about that (for now).

and from the "it's about time" department here is my random picture for this entry....



ok, Chris give us some more updates on your movie there, I need more! Oh! I didn't realize that the next movie is due out on Raymond's birthday next year! Sweet!!

Update Number Two from Vacation...

It's Thursday, which means that my vacation is almost done. Luckily Memorial Day adds another day to it, but eventually it has to come to an end, doesn't it?

Took advantage of the day today I must say. We took Raymond to see Thor and Kung Fu Panda 2 (the latter in 3D). It worked out pretty well. I thought Raymond acted up a little during Thor and it started to make me upset, but seeing, and hearing two to three kids act up during Kung Fu Panda 2 reminded me that Raymond isn't bad at all. In fact, he wasn't even close to be bad compared to them. Whew! I am grateful!

Hot Dogs, Turkey Hamburger Patties, and Apricot Chicken were all grilled up today. Man, I felt like I spent more time on the grill today than I did during the Beach House weekend! The heat may play a factor in that. Damn, the heat has turned up in Houston...it's back to normal now. Hell, it should be 78 degrees tonight around 10:00...not cooling off enough at night. I did a little stuff in the yard, or just outside that I have needed to tend to for a while tonight. It wasn't yard work, but it was still doing something.

Tomorrow, we get up and take the Kiddos to school in the morning. That means Ruby and I will have a little time to ourselves. There is so much to do, I am not sure what we are going to get done exactly. I know for sure we will probably finally get a lunch in to ourselves. It should be a nice way to end off the week....

No random pic this time, but I will try to put one in other entries...let's just say for the hell of it, yeah?!?! Cool...

...An update, and a random pic...

....hello....here I am again, trying to update after several weeks...

Right now, I am currently enjoying a much needed vacation, a week and a day off of work. It's nice to be off of work, in any capacity. Sure, we aren't getting nearly everything accomplished that we would like, but it is nice nonetheless....

Beach House 2011 came and went. It never seems to last. This year's was different than years past...that isn't a bad thing, it's just different. I don't think that I came even close to drinking the amount that I have before. I guess the best way to describe it this year was that it was just low key; more chill than ever before. Another sign that we are just getting older!

What you find about vacations when you have kids, is that almost nothing goes as planned. Kids will definitely make sure of that. You just have to deal with it and enjoy the time that you have off. I think that I have for the most part. I really don't have anything to complain about since I am not at work. That is all that I really want. Another factor is that I think that I have so much that I want to do, it is almost impossible to get to them, or get them done. It's all good.

Well, here is the random picture that I eluded to in this entry's title. I don't know why I am putting this, but I really liked it when I first came across it. Jim Henson's passing was something like 21 years ago on May 16...wow!

what to do?

Here is another post that I started to work on a couple of days ago. I saved it so I just would delete it and not update anything.

I find that if I type something up and email to myself, I can build a entry from that, or just get a snapshot of how I was feeling for a moment in time. As you can see, work is giving me a lot of trouble these days and even though I hate to write about it, it's almost unavoidable. Here is is....


It's hard to be positive when you are in a place that seems to beat you down. Even if you are trying to keep a positive face on. I guess the true feeling is still out there, giving that negative vibe. I keep trying to be nice guy, I mean, that is what I am by nature, and nice guy, but there comes a time where being nice just doesn't get it done. I think it is that time now. Well, maybe past time. I hate to say that, I hate even more to do it, but I am going to have to. I hope that it comes across ok and gets the job done.

It just sucks that it has to come down to this. Still I am patient, I realize that I am probably too patient, but I wait and see what will happen....

It's difficult for me to figure out how I want to treat this, or what I am going to do long term. I think the long term solution is inevitable. I hate to say it, but it might be for the best. At least for me. For now, part of me wants to just work and continue on, not letting anything get to me but there are other times where you just can't ignore things. I don't know. I guess, I just don't know how much longer or how much patient that I can continue being. Only time will tell? I guess so because right now, I don't have any real answers....

...words...

I started this draft a few weeks ago...just decided to finally post it...

...I like a good blog, I wish mine was as entertaining as some that I have read over the years. Sometimes I wish I had more time to update my blog. I guess it wouldn't be time consuming if I did maintain it, right? I also wish that sometimes more people visited my blogs as well, but sometimes I don't mind that hardly anyone knows about it.

Things are changing...fast too! Decisions are to be made. Big decisions. I am bit nervous about something, that I think I might actually get if I wanted it. It's almost a no brainer, but there is some things I may regret...UPDATE, I DIDN'T GET THE POSITION THAT I WAS ELUDING TO...OH WELL...

I am starting to work out. Well, really for the first time in my life. The Spin Bike is no joke. I don't think that I have ever worked out to a routine before, even if it is on DVD. I have never felt that bad in my life. It has been to long since i was active. I am going to try my best to keep it up, I do want to be around to see my kiddos grow up, by the way...UPDATE, THIS WAS THE ONLY TIME I WORKED OUT, GUESS I SHOULD TRY AGAIN....

Another weekend gone...

...another weekend wasted. No, I wasn't wasted, the weekend was. At least I feel like I wasted it. It's always nice to rest, but it sucks to do nothing.

I gotta tell you, I felt pretty down in the dumps. If I didn't know any better, I would almost say at one point this weekend, I felt borderline depressed. Lucky for me with the kids and all, it almost assures that you don't hit depression, they keep you on your toes so much, you don't have time to get depressed. Well, I am sure that you could, but I don't see it happening for me. Not to mention the fact that I am not that type of person. Not even close. Thinking about it....it just doesn't seem right for me to say I felt a little on the depressed side.

I am sure that I wasn't, I just felt like I was, you know!? I am just saying that I hated feeling like this during the weekend. I am not saying that I have gotten out of my system, it's just now I have to get prepared for yet another freakin' work week. Sigh...I cringe at the thought of going through another work week...

It is what it is though. I have to figure out some why to make it through the week. I have to dig deep and get some kind of positive out of my situation, but it is getting so much more difficult. Man, it really is. I don't know what trick I am going to use this week, maybe just the thought of getting the day over with and going home, and that another day gone is another day closer to the weekend....but wait!!! I work this coming weekend, so that isn't going to help much...

The dark side of the force can now feel the hate flowing through me....

So with not really going into super details, one should be able to tell what the root of my evil is, right!? I so didn't want to use my blog to talk about shit like this either....it was inevitable, wasn't it?!

Enough about that....tomorrow is Valentine's Day for whatever that is worth. Lucky for me that Ruby and I don't do much if anything for it. Oh sure, I could have gotten here something, but I didn't get around to it. Yes, I do feel bad (when I think about it) that I didn't get Ruby anything, but I still didn't do anything about that. I think that we have been together so long that it is just another day for us. Having children now, you kind of turn your attention to them on days like this. I still love Ruby as much now as I ever have, and I am happy to be with her. I am glad that we still get along, and still have a happy marriage. I wish everyone could experience what we have...

Ok, I am having trouble trying to wrap this up, so I think I will just leave on this note.....

later days....

n

I haven't drank in almost three weeks!!!

...and not on purpose or anything like that, it just kind of happened. It's weird. Man, if I was eating right or working out, I probably would have lost like five pounds easily. Way to capitalize on that, Nick!! Damn...oh well. I almost don't want to drink to see how long I can go at it. I told Ruby yesterday that I wondered if I could go the entire month of January without drinking...hmmmm...dare I try it?!?!

I wonder if I am getting more boring or something? I don't know. I don't do anything anymore. We don't go out, don't really get together with anybody. It's just...different to me, I guess. Am I changing, or what? Ah, who the hell knows? Maybe just a strange streak for me. During all of this, I am having the most fun with the family than I ever have, well...when the kiddos aren't sick that is. The girls are getting more fun, Raymond keeps on growing, and Ruby and I just have to sit back and trip out on them all. She told me the other day that we need to take more video of them. I agreed, but feel lazy about getting to it. I do want to take more pictures of them, for sure.

Speaking of, I am debating on whether I should dive into photography. I mean, like seriously, just trying to learn as much as I can. I am also trying to figure out if using film is worth it these days. I would absolutely love to use the ol' Canon. More on that as things develop....ha, ha, ha....

I have been reading a bit more, which is something else that I wanted to do. I am glad that I am doing at least that.

Well, I am getting tired. I need to get to bed. I still get on the fence about having to get to work at 07:30. It's nice as long as I get to leave before 17:00 (that's 5:00), but that is few and far between (an UNDERSTATEMENT).