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I started this draft a few weeks ago...just decided to finally post it...

...I like a good blog, I wish mine was as entertaining as some that I have read over the years. Sometimes I wish I had more time to update my blog. I guess it wouldn't be time consuming if I did maintain it, right? I also wish that sometimes more people visited my blogs as well, but sometimes I don't mind that hardly anyone knows about it.

Things are changing...fast too! Decisions are to be made. Big decisions. I am bit nervous about something, that I think I might actually get if I wanted it. It's almost a no brainer, but there is some things I may regret...UPDATE, I DIDN'T GET THE POSITION THAT I WAS ELUDING TO...OH WELL...

I am starting to work out. Well, really for the first time in my life. The Spin Bike is no joke. I don't think that I have ever worked out to a routine before, even if it is on DVD. I have never felt that bad in my life. It has been to long since i was active. I am going to try my best to keep it up, I do want to be around to see my kiddos grow up, by the way...UPDATE, THIS WAS THE ONLY TIME I WORKED OUT, GUESS I SHOULD TRY AGAIN....

Another weekend gone...

...another weekend wasted. No, I wasn't wasted, the weekend was. At least I feel like I wasted it. It's always nice to rest, but it sucks to do nothing.

I gotta tell you, I felt pretty down in the dumps. If I didn't know any better, I would almost say at one point this weekend, I felt borderline depressed. Lucky for me with the kids and all, it almost assures that you don't hit depression, they keep you on your toes so much, you don't have time to get depressed. Well, I am sure that you could, but I don't see it happening for me. Not to mention the fact that I am not that type of person. Not even close. Thinking about it....it just doesn't seem right for me to say I felt a little on the depressed side.

I am sure that I wasn't, I just felt like I was, you know!? I am just saying that I hated feeling like this during the weekend. I am not saying that I have gotten out of my system, it's just now I have to get prepared for yet another freakin' work week. Sigh...I cringe at the thought of going through another work week...

It is what it is though. I have to figure out some why to make it through the week. I have to dig deep and get some kind of positive out of my situation, but it is getting so much more difficult. Man, it really is. I don't know what trick I am going to use this week, maybe just the thought of getting the day over with and going home, and that another day gone is another day closer to the weekend....but wait!!! I work this coming weekend, so that isn't going to help much...

The dark side of the force can now feel the hate flowing through me....

So with not really going into super details, one should be able to tell what the root of my evil is, right!? I so didn't want to use my blog to talk about shit like this either....it was inevitable, wasn't it?!

Enough about that....tomorrow is Valentine's Day for whatever that is worth. Lucky for me that Ruby and I don't do much if anything for it. Oh sure, I could have gotten here something, but I didn't get around to it. Yes, I do feel bad (when I think about it) that I didn't get Ruby anything, but I still didn't do anything about that. I think that we have been together so long that it is just another day for us. Having children now, you kind of turn your attention to them on days like this. I still love Ruby as much now as I ever have, and I am happy to be with her. I am glad that we still get along, and still have a happy marriage. I wish everyone could experience what we have...

Ok, I am having trouble trying to wrap this up, so I think I will just leave on this note.....

later days....

n

I haven't drank in almost three weeks!!!

...and not on purpose or anything like that, it just kind of happened. It's weird. Man, if I was eating right or working out, I probably would have lost like five pounds easily. Way to capitalize on that, Nick!! Damn...oh well. I almost don't want to drink to see how long I can go at it. I told Ruby yesterday that I wondered if I could go the entire month of January without drinking...hmmmm...dare I try it?!?!

I wonder if I am getting more boring or something? I don't know. I don't do anything anymore. We don't go out, don't really get together with anybody. It's just...different to me, I guess. Am I changing, or what? Ah, who the hell knows? Maybe just a strange streak for me. During all of this, I am having the most fun with the family than I ever have, well...when the kiddos aren't sick that is. The girls are getting more fun, Raymond keeps on growing, and Ruby and I just have to sit back and trip out on them all. She told me the other day that we need to take more video of them. I agreed, but feel lazy about getting to it. I do want to take more pictures of them, for sure.

Speaking of, I am debating on whether I should dive into photography. I mean, like seriously, just trying to learn as much as I can. I am also trying to figure out if using film is worth it these days. I would absolutely love to use the ol' Canon. More on that as things develop....ha, ha, ha....

I have been reading a bit more, which is something else that I wanted to do. I am glad that I am doing at least that.

Well, I am getting tired. I need to get to bed. I still get on the fence about having to get to work at 07:30. It's nice as long as I get to leave before 17:00 (that's 5:00), but that is few and far between (an UNDERSTATEMENT).

A Hair Cut, A Shower, and A Shave....

....yeah, I was supposed to do that tonight, but just flat out didn't. Did a little bit of cleaning. Much needed, but didn't get what I wanted to get done...well, done. Having a clean house seems to be a battle that we cannot win. We try and fight the good fight though....

As I have said many, many times before, I think that work is just consuming me. During the last two weeks, I have worked more hours than I ever have during any time in my life. I am tired because of it. I really hate having to recover the entire weekend, and by recover, I mean sleep. I slept a lot this weekend. I guess that is what the weekends are for? For now, all that I can do is keep on working. I suppose that it is nice to have sympathy from the entire lab though. Seriously, everyone is being very patient with us, some even helping out as much as they can.

Moving along, I think that I have heard more new music than I ever have in the last 8 or 9 years. New music meaning the stuff they play on 104, 97.9 and any other pop music station out there. That is part of Richard no longer being at work. The new folks have now brought their music to work. This might be the hardest part of work....not really, but maybe....

In any event, I am still looking forward for this year to wind down. The holiday's and the few extra days off are going to be much needed, you have no freaking idea. I will be honestly, so glad to get this year over with. It has been the weirdest one to date for me. Hell, next year could be worse! I really don't know. It might not be, but I just want 2010 way in the rear view, you know?!

Sigh...

Alright, I have a lot on my mind and a lot going on. I think I need much more updates. It's a bit like therapy for me in a sense. I certainly will give it more effort.

Well, we had nice halloween. I think that we took Raymond trick or treating for the first time. He had a blast. He was Robin this year. Batman last year, Robin this year...makes sense. He certainly liked to go trick or treating, even if was only like four or five houses. It should only get better as he gets older. The girls'...well, they didn't take their afternoon nap, so they were a bit on the grumpy side. I will say that they looked cute as the bumble bee (Lylah) and the lady bug (Zoe). Good memories!

I think that is all that I have for now....besides that work is consuming me, and I don't want it to. Just keep on grinding it out. I am hoping for a great week (yeah, right!?). Texans on Monday Night Football, St. Arnold's Devine Reserve No. 10 out on Tuesday, and the all mighty Gwar on Friday Night!! Can't wait!

Here's to hoping for a decent week.....

Sorry, I have to post this....

I love it!

Texans stomp The Colts!

Now this was the event that I was waiting for. Yes, the allergies were still present, but not as bad. I am glad that we got to go to this game. When will we ever have the chance to ever go again? Who knows?! I must add, that Club level is probably the way to go. They might have been the best seats that I have ever had a game. They weren't too high, not too low, great view!

This was probably the loudest the crowd got, maybe...even though The Colts got a big game, it was still loud to start it off...