Helpless

After a pretty good day of Raymond staying home as more of a precaution than anything else, everything changed. It's funny (not really) how something can change in the blink of an eye.

Soon after finally getting to watch Teen Titans Go! Raymond's ear started to hurt him. Just out of nowhere, no sign of it coming, nothing. It's weird. The kids were so looking forward to finally getting to see NEW TEEN TITANS, they were sooo happy when it came on. They sat, they watched, and they laughed. They loved it! Then everything changed.

Raymond was in extreme pain. I didn't know how to take it, it was so sudden, so quick. I don't recall ever seeing him in the state that he was in. He cried almost constantly from after 7:00, until he fell asleep at around 9:00. I still don't know how he fell asleep.

As with most things, we look to home remedies first. Garlic is the big winner here, from drops, to just putting a fresh clove on your ear. We tried this tonight, knowing that we have had success once before. It wasn't working.

I anticipate a long night, knowing that illness tend to get worse at night, but so far, so good. I have seen a little discomfort, but he has been able to remain asleep. He sleeps now on the couch, and I don't want to move him or disturb him in any way. Eventually I will have to attempt some sleep, but for now...I watch some playoff basketball and keep an eye on Raymond...

In the meantime, here are quotes that will break your heart, as it did mine...just helpless to do anything to comfort...

"Why isn't it working daddy?"
"I just want to play,"
"How does your ear hurt you Daddy?"
"Why does god make you sick?"
"I just want to feel better than I do right now!"
"I don't like this feeling"

Yeah, etched in my memory...

General Zod....

Haven't posted in a long time, but nothing like a good ol' hero movie to get me going....This originally aired duing the MTV Awards, I hear (I wouldn't know)...and a lot of response was that it was creepy and great marketing.  It is a message of General Zod calling for the people of Earth to turn over Kal-El to him (Superman)....I really like it. He appears to be wearing a mask, which is supposed to be equally as creepy from those working closely to the movie. MAY I SUGGEST CLICKING THE VIDEO AND CHECKING IT OUT ON YOUTUBE DIRECTLY?!?!



I don't know how Nolan does it, but he manages to keep a lot close to the vest and not many spoilers come out.  In these social networking days, that must take a lot of work, but it also makes for great movie going experiences...you know, like the way it is supposed to be....

The third and final trailer is also out (www.manofsteel.com) and it is definitely worth checking out. (The father and son parts of it already is pulling at my strings...getting really soft as time goes on....)

No TV or Internet...

We haven't had cable or Internet since Friday evening, but somehow we have managed to survive it. Chances are we won't have any until Wednesday due to AT&T screwing up setting up our appointment.

Should be interesting. It's been more boring than I thought it would be. Now, I am not the biggest tv advocate out there, but it can help out with the kids from time to time. I would, however, be lost without a smartphone. Whew, glad I can check Internet through the phone.

It's amazing what you can get done on a phone if you think about it. It's not always the most ideal way to surf, but it definitely does the trick. I mean, I typed this up while sitting in bed, ready to retire for the night! Kinda cool if you ask me!

Bengals vs. Texans

As nervous as I was about the state of the Texans (and hell, all of Houston for that matter), I was able to go to my first NFL Playoff game. It was fun to be at a game that the Texans were victorious.

It also marks the first time that Raymond attended a Texans game. I don't think I could afford to take him other wise. Not to mention meals and drinks anyway, it was pricey. He had a great time and I am sure that he will not soon forget the experience. He fed off of the crowd. He watched and learned when to wave the towel and yell. I didn't have to coach him at all. He was amazed when some tackles happened, he smiled in amazement. I taught him the "FIRST DOWN" chant, and he took it from there.

It was great to see him happy about the game. As I have found more and more, just about everything has turned into "for the kids". I am probably more happy that the kids are happy. Not that I can't enjoy myself or anything like that, it is just that much more better when the kids are having fun.

Now the tough task of going to Foxboro to take on the Patriots again. Not many teams get a second chance on playing and beating a team. They have a unique chance to make things right. I fully expect them to play better, and make it a close game. If it's a close game, anything can happen. Still...I am nervous...c'mon boys! Leave it out all on the field!!

Bulls on Parade!

Happy Holidays!

The holidays are officially over. I always get a little said, but at the same time, I am glad to get back into a routine. I have actually gotten way off track with the holidays. I feel a bit scattered and unorganized. Once school starts back up for the kiddos, I can get settled back in to a routine.

The new job has been absolutely fantastic. Stress free and pretty easy, so far. I know that there are going to be a little bit of challenges that will pop up, but I look forward to them. I am sure that business will pick up and that ESC's presence in Houston will grow! I actually like working again, and I am actually looking for some challenges. I am still trying to find my way. I mean working out of home and by yourself can be a little tough for the most part, I still need to find the best way to work. Getting going on your own can be a huge challenge in itself. At least for me.

Going back to the "holidays are over theme" we have decided that this is probably the last Christmas that we will spend in our little home. Truthfully, we will be out of this house sooner than you might think. We just can't continue to stay here anymore. The conditions are getting worse. It's sad. It's frustrating. It's the right thing to do. Right?! Now we begin the planning phases of moving out and figuring out just what the hell we are going to do with this house and more importantly, financially. No doubt we are going to take a substantial loss...we are just trying to make it as painless as possible....sigh...more on this to follow, that is for sure....

So this is what it is like....

...hmmmmm...being unemployed. I haven't enjoyed my "week off" like I thought I would. The whole getting laid off was weird to begin with, but I haven't gotten settled being at home all week. Mostly because I have been a bit busy with other things.

...Monday was a little surreal. The day was spent waiting for emails and phone calls. Tuesday was the day off with Ruby and the Girls. Wednesday was Raymond's early dismissal and some things with Momma. Thursday was morning with the Girls and then off to school to have some Daddy duties at Raymond's school. Fun, but not like I had wished. I wish I have a bit more time to myself and to have actually gotten some house work done.

...I don't know how much longer I will have time to do things, and by that I mean being unemployed. I wasn't too concerned about it at first, but today was kind of like I will need some money rolling in soon? Maybe, maybe not....

...one thing is for sure, you do have a lot of thoughts running through your head all day. Some of them aren't valid though, but some are. In the end, I think your mind can make things over dramatic. All kinds of thoughts...about work, former that is. In the end, my family life helps keep me focused on other things. Now I can get into all of the shit that runs though your mind, but I don't know if I would want them out that like this. I will pass....

As I have said all along, and others have told me as well...my former employer probably did me a huge favor (and made a huge mistake, at least I like to think). I will land on my feet and will be fine....still it is only human to wanna question things and try to make sense of it all...even if that becomes a huge waste of time...

...another thing that sucks is being laid off just in time for Houston Beer Week, and not getting to do a damn thing with it!!! Man a lot of great events going on all throughout the city...and I am tied up...that really sucks...

...that's just the life of a "G" I guess...

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It's time to get back on the horse...

...Well, I went and did it. I went a few weeks without consistently running. I was hoping to not let that happen, but it did....and it wasn't hard either. My fear is that it is going to be tough to get "my running legs and lungs" back. Ultimately, it is my own doing.

I will get back on schedule tomorrow. Monday was a running day for me, so its a good starting point.

I also feel as if I gained some, if not all, of that weight back. Damn it. It is so easy to "relapse", although I don't know if that is the right word. Seems a bit over dramatic, doesn't it?

I will hope to continue to run on a consistent basis through the end of the year. Yes, through the time change and all. I might have to adjust to somethings, but I will do my very best.

Today will be my last "bad day" for a while, hoping that I do better, or as well I was doing through my initial running.


Wish me luck.