Monday, August 17, 2009

The Home Stretch...

Well (I like to start of with well's, don't I?!?!), it is definitely time for this term, "the home stretch". As I told Ruby, it's crunch time, we are definitely in the home stretch now. We really are. Wow! At least, three weeks away? I can't believe it! Still, after all of this time, I still cannot believe it. We are about to enter the super ultimate life change. I mean, we went through one already, but this one (or two) is going to be just 100 times bigger than that. Right?!? It has to be. It's about that time that I start to savor and soak up anything that I can right now just because it is not ever going to be this way again.

It's never going to be just Ruby, Raymond, and I laying on the couch watching t.v. on a lazy Sunday morning. It's not ever going to be Ruby and I running to the movies in a blink of an eye and actually get there just in time anymore. It's never going to be me, sitting at home on a Sunday morning either surfing the internet and listening to music or trying to play the guitar to a song that I wouldn't normally try to play to (boy, do I love those moments). It's not going to be like that ever again.....and that's ok. Really, it is. It is just that I am trying to soak these moments in as we have them, because they are going to be gone. I hope that this doesn't seem like I am preparing for a death sentence or trying to be mean, because I am not. I am just trying to share that these times that I am having now are fairly precious to me. I know that these aren't going to be the only precious moments, because there are two reasons coming really soon that ensure that this is only the beginning, but it is just going to be different.

Life is changing. Man, it is changing. I am going to be a father of three. We are going to be a family of five. Wow, every time I think it, even now, typing it, it just seems weird. I never thought that it would actually happen. It seems like I have to finally grow up, or that I am finally grown up. For the first time, I have to think of my job as a career now and not just a paycheck. I feel like I have to think in ways that I really haven't, or might have even refused to. Oh, now...I isn't as grim as I am making it all out to be, it is just the way I am thinking. Don't worry, I am not slipping into depression, or regretting anything because I am not, and I don't. I am just simply thinking about how things are going to change.

It's going to be a really wild ride that is surely to make Ruby and I exhausted, but it is something that I am so looking forward to. I think I am getting more excited as it gets closer. Hell, I think that I even got a little nervous when I was talking to a coworker about the arrival of the twins last week, but it was a good nervous. It made me happy to feel that way. It's kind of hard to explain, but it was a goof feeling.

Now, we just cross out fingers and hope that everything stays on schedule and that everyone comes out happy and healthy. Each day draws us closer and closer in meeting the Twins! I can't wait!

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